Solititude

Reflecting on solitude led me to realize that almost everyone in my family are solitary people. I do not like being around a lot of people, I do not like having to socialize when I don't feel like it. Ever since I was a young girl, I never liked hanging out in crowds. While there are people who yearn for the company of others, I prefer being by myself. If society didn't frown down upon solitude as much as it does, I would probably not care for being social. There is always this constant pressure that makes me look for people, to be their friend and to have them keep me company. I do not like this pressure, but at the same time I do not like others giving me pitiful looks because I am sitting alone or walking alone. Physically I am never alone but emotionally and mentally I am, and there is nothing wrong with that. I might have someone to keep me physical company but there is no one that understands how I think and how I feel. I like having life this way, it creates a sense of privacy and feeling of self. Being alone gives me the opportunity to find things I am happy for, I do not have to pretend to like something or to act one way. Yes, perhaps I need to find other friends who I have more in common but it is hard to do that, to establish friendships on common things because if people are like me, I will never know when they are truly are being sincere or they too are changing just so they can have someone and not be alone. Being alone is not bad, and I will never understand why society sees is as a bad stigma.